Finding Balance

I wrote the other day about feeling the fear and doing it anyway. In that blog I also touched on the difference between pushing past fear versus listening to fear. The question in my YouTube video, asking how balancing our fear and faith plays out in our day to day life, is a good one. I am certainly living the answer.

I am realizing that although I have strong faith and belief in the Universe supporting me as I move in the direction of my dreams, there is an underlying doubt present that keeps me in fear. I am aware enough to know that where we focus our conscious energy is only a part of the picture. Our unconscious beliefs are extremely powerful and, if left unattended, can result in self-sabotage.

I suspect I am not alone in having a subconscious belief system of lack and limitation. Although my conscious mind believes in abundance and prosperity, the instant manifestation of such in my life is a bit slower in coming forth. Most likely this is partially due to seeds planted when I was young of which I’m not even fully aware.

It’s similar to what many of the spiritual teachers talk about when they say that simply repeating affirmations won’t work. We have to involve our emotions in the feeling level. I can consciously state I am an overnight success as as speaker and writer, but if my unconscious doesn’t believe it … well, it’s just not going to happen.

So, my point in all this is while I’m living the balance, I am realizing that until I am able to weed out all of my limiting beliefs, I may need to go ahead and get at least a part time job to pay the bills. I’ve been fighting this because accepting a job doing anything other than what I want to do to create a life I love feels like giving up. It’s taking a bit of reframe to realize, however, that if I don’t do this, then I am potentially setting myself up for a larger failure.

Stay tuned as I continue to delve deeply into where I’m limiting myself, uncover and uproot those beliefs, and learn to change them.